Close Your Eyes
Close your eyes, take a deep breath, scream. Those are wise words. I have followed these simple instructions many times. Humour me, just do it.
I always wonder what other people see when they close their eyes. I mean, it doesn’t keep me awake at night or anything like that.
You need a why and I will oblige but and it’s a big but, no names, no pack drill.
Anticipation, it’s a good thing, right? That unsettled feeling in your stomach, sweaty palms, a little sprinkling of anxiousness.
Maybe a good example is when you’re waiting for something to arrive in the post. It could be an order you’ve placed or a letter of acceptance. Whatever it is, you’re excited and expectant.
The problem is, there’s a fine line when it comes to the time you have to wait that directly correlates to the transition from eager anticipation to disquiet. There’s probably a formula, or a graph.
The latter is where I am at. After a day, all was still well but we’re now into day four and I’ll be honest, frustration is now the predominant emotion. Furthermore, a sense of helplessness.
Take A Deep Breath
I could just let it go, there’s nothing I can do to speed things up. I just have to wait, be patience, give the benefit of the doubt, chill out. Are you kidding me, I want to scream, long and loud.
Do you remember one of my first posts, Things That Should Work (But Don’t)? This is a prime example, moreover, I have done everything by the book and yet, here I am, waiting. Eyes closed, breathing deeply and screaming (internally)
Furthermore, although I’ve probably written enough on the subject, there’s no ‘closure’ on something like this. It’s not like I can go all Moaning Myrtle. That’s not how I want to start a new adventure.
So, I’ll smile through gritted and pretend that all is well with the world. Once I get started I am sure everything will be just fine and all of this will be forgotten.
What’s the phrase, discretion is the better part of valour? I can do that.
I think my mood was compounded by having a couple of time wasters wanting to connect on one of the platforms I’m on. There’s always a little flutter in my stomach when there’s a possibility of a new connection.
So, I shall close this one up and sing my own, quiet song of silence. That, my friends, is one of the worst segues but it does allow me to give you some thing that is my own ‘go to’ when I need to reset.
Here is ‘Disturbed” rendition of Simon and Garfunkel’s ‘Sound of Silence’. The studio version is HERE but, if you prefer the live version you can watch it HERE. Either one will give you goose bumps, methinks.